I saw dark knight again today (gets better the 2nd time =D) then bought the Batman vcd with encouragement from Liana (batman nut xD) and watched Nicholson as the Joker. He was quite brilliant, of course I'm not a big fan of movies in those days...the style of them, and such. But he was actually pretty good, psychotic in that way that makes you laugh nervously and such. If Ledger took influence from Nicholson, then I could tell some parts that were similar in both the Jokers...cant remember what they were now. The laugh, I think. ...dunno. anyway. I was so going to scream LEDGER IS MY FAVOURITE JOKER but like my dad says theyre too different to compare. both were good. Ledger's is more dark and gritty than Nicholson's but the new movies are like that in comparison to the older ones. I think. So both of them are equally as fantastic as one another =) (Rhiannon thinks Heath Ledger was SEXY as the Joker. ...-blink- he was /creepy/ not /sexy/. well, maybe in like some parts, but most of it he was too odd and creepy in an awesome way to be sexy. Rhiannon's weird haha xD and I'm usually the one falling for the villains! weird. reversed roles.)

yay, LJ posting is fun. I really have to get into a more daily habit.
Curiously, I seem to have lost my usual motivation to make people understand me when I'm upset. Yknow, the usual...flee to people and moan to them and let them pat you on the back? Whenever it occurs to me, I can never think of someone whose response would satisfy me. perhaps it's because I've listened to my friends and what they say to my problems (which are recurring, not new) too often, and I know what they're going to say, not much point in asking them, is there? Especially when the problems are ones that they don't completely understand /or/ have a different point of view on, which makes me feel like them giving me advice opposite to what they think is a bit...stupid.
So these days I seem to take the problem into my own mind and turn it over, feeling quite distant about it in a way. Not my usual FUCK I MUST TELL SOMEONE! but more a sort of I want to tell someone, but keeping it to myself is just as satisfying, but with more benefits, so I shall. Or something. It might pass. I quite like it though, less burdening others with problems? Not even "I feel bad, so I won't burden them with my problems" but "I don't /want/ to talk to them about my problems" which is satisfying yourself and them...kill two birds with one stone and all.
Still quite curious. Maybe my mind is just learning to accept that there's never going to be someone who'll be the perfect person for loading my problems on? That would be cruel to the person anyway. Self reliant. That's what most of us are encouraged to be these days. Hmm.

Shut up. Just shut up.
I'm annoyed, but I'm happy! o.o

lady_kaos: You don't burden me.

Heh, I'm sitting somewhere in my dad's university. Really nice place actually, this open-air level with some chairs and tables and it's got a view of the mountains (which isn't very impressive because the seats are about as far away from the view as possible). Parknshop is nearby and there's like a crapload of cafes here XD so I can just grab food anytime I want. I have $500 in my pocket~ Yay for money :3 Dad says I've got to BUY STUFF =O for my barbeque-party on Sunday. BBQ food and drinks and chips and stuff.
I'm kinda tired though xD; I went to bed at 12 (;~; stupid of me) and had to wake up at 7 .__. arrgh. I haven't eaten anything but a mini-waffle. I don't think my body is used to eating so early in the morning yet. xD Usually my first piece of food would be about 1pm.
It's 10:24am now btw. xD
Hrmm. anyway. toodeloo.

Hehe, had a barbeque yesterday. Loads of my dad's friends/work colleagues/and their girlfriends were invited over and there was LOTS OF FOOOOD. And about 50 hundred million drinks. Me and Rhiannon had a lot of fun playing on the Wii one of them brought over and pretty much sucking at everything we did. I think it's safe to say Rhiannon failed a little more than I failed, but...yknow. xD Doesn't make much of a difference.
We did the coke+mentos thing! But it wasn't diet coke. So it didn't go very high, but it was still fun and it splashed all over the floor and the dogs were scared out of their lives >_> bwhahaha.
I had a really weird, heavy, deep-sleep dream (I think) but I can't remember it. It had my helper in it, though!

Had a drama rehersal today. It was good and I didn't forget any lines etc etc, so that wasn't bad. And I got to prance about wearing a tie and later a business suit jacket. Heh.

Mentioned Sek to Rhiannon in passing. She was a bit weirded out. I said I'd link her to a site when we got home.
She also seems to be able to remember how she died in her past life. But what about me? ): -feels jealous- I'm just kidding, really.

I am getting very fustrated at how I don't seem to find the energy nor the time to do any drawing lately, and whilst my friends churn out pictures I find myself getting more irritated by the day. I think I'll just leave everything on my DA account to stew for a bit. Then come back when I don't feel like I hate everyone who can draw quickly.

Covalent bonding is boring. Plus, I don't know how to finish this homework on it. Ah, no wait. I just guessed the answers, who cares if they turn out to be wrong?

I have decided I hate people who can form relationships easy as pie. First of all, why is it harder for me? Second of all, clearly this is something all teenagers worry about, so surely I should have escaped it? Third of all, don't these relationships lose all meaning + value?

Hm. My maths teacher is a pretty narrowminded guy. He was showing us tree diagrams for probability and was like "if you had a daughter, or if you had a son.." and I was thinking "WHAT ABOUT THE INTERSEX PEOPLE? D:" Hahaha...

Sigh~ So sick of having friendships. Such hard things to maintain, are they not?

Psh.
"OMG A FRIEND MADE ME A MUSIC MASHUP"
"wow that's....great?"
"Want to listen?"
"No."
"T_T"
"If your friend made it for YOU then I doubt it'll make sense to ME"
"fine then...music's not very important anyway."
"Ahuh..."
"I was being sarcastic...bye...-goes busy-"
v.v Guess which one was me. I'm a little annoyed because I've been roaming the land of Riven (the computer game - is totally fab. AMAZING graphics but so damn confusing with no sense of direction or objective and no people around but "you") and not getting anywhere. And dad won't play so I can watch him be as rubbish as I was ): The natives of Riven don't even speak english! Oh well. Challenging, at any rate. Good for the brain?

Katie, Jodi (no 'e', damnit, NO E! stop spelling her name with a e) and Claire M coming over =D DANCE PRACTICE. Means I get to shout down the phone if Claire doesn't show up. Hehehehe. And we might watch MOOOVIEEES. On the projector.
Met this girl who lives in singapore in birls =O She's going to HK in a few days. I was all YAY DONT FORGET THE SCRUMMY HK FOOD < 3 xD Anyway we iz totally chattin on msn yo.
On other notesss...why do people like Myspace and not LJ? ): LJ is the best. Totally. It has the best communities and whatnot and it doesn't have silly bulletins that get deleted the next day (sheena if you ever read this STOP WRITING SO MANY POINTLESS ONES THAT TEMPT ME TO READ THEM ALL FOR NO REASON ): )
Also: can't be stuffed with having online friendships anymore
Also: want more hot girls in hk plz.
Also: SRY TDF U SUK =)

p r y n c e says:
Sekettle? I can totally see it. [o_O]
c k y [will do art for food] [ forget me not ] says:
xD!! So.. half a Sek, half a cow?
p r y n c e says:
...kettle
p r y n c e says:
not cattle
p r y n c e says:
-pats-
c k y [will do art for food] [ forget me not ] says:
..oh right.
p r y n c e says:
LOL
~
XDDD
Doing RS hwk. Siiigh!

FUCKING JESUS.
where is vicky. I said I'd ttyl to her earlier on but she's not here and I need to moan to her. xD she's put through all my shit, poor girl.
LMAO and you know
today I picked up the phone and it was dad and he was like WHO THE HECK IS THIS cause he thought I was MUM. shock of his life im sure. It's cause I have a hoarse voice today cause of singing and dancing and whatnot yesterday. -nodnod- and mum sounds like she has a hoarse voice a lot of the time. weirdly enough.
28/35 on my IT test. W T F. Natasha got 29 because on one question she put the same answer twice just worded differently. Arrgh hate my stupid IT teacher. He deserves to die.
Umm this is probably my 2nd entry today. but who cares because i have a lot to say xD
yesterday everyone was asking me about being bi xD they said it was interesting. more than their love lives anyway mwhahaaa. Which is better than FREAKY of course. and now i just love watching peoples expressions when I go "well hey there ;D". it's HILARIOUS.
did you know that whenever i listen to Kyrie i almost cry because it's like reliving the whole thing again..gosh I sound like a saddo o.o but HEY its a good song at any rate
working on a pic ATM and its not really working out. hate drawing hands! D:

Hmm, I should update my journal more properly.
Anywho, went to ANNE FRANK EXHIBITION TODAY. dun dundundilidundun. From 11am to 2:30pm (roundabout). It wasn't very big. But we got a mini tour around the printed out paper pictures and a summary of the war then we went in to watch a vid about anne frank (which was sad ._.) and had a peer into a replica of Anne's room (dad went "WHERE IS HER /DOOR/?" as there was none XD later when we looked at a picture on a magazine thing they gave us it showed her door was at the place where the "wall" had been "cut away" for us to look inside. Dad was there to help out the two PRS teachers). There was a "tree of hope" where you could write a message on a paper leaf and clip it there. It was cool reading previous messages. Mine said something about it not being all about the needs of one person, but rather the whole world, or something. There were some really lame messages about "I hope I go to Japan" and stuff. o_o
Before the exhibition I had Drama and Dance. Jess kept attacking me in Dance, acting like I was delibrately pissing her off when I was simply saying I didn't like some of her ideas and when she made us follow them, doing my usual silly thing to make the others laugh, which I do at least every twenty minutes at school. Lol xD I was ready to go into "Pissed Off Emma" mode, and I told that to Rhiannon (who's in our dance group too) later and she was like "yeah and I was thinking 'please dont go into pissed off emma mode, please dont'" because I can be pretty scary when I'm annoyed xD In drama we're writing the script for a play about Cambodia and human rights =O I hope Kim doesn't ask us to go round to her house to finish the script. I really couldn't manage stepping into there after what happened at Halloween.
After the exhibition I went to physics for 20 minutes until school ended (pointless!) but found out my mark for the physics test was 87%, 43.5 marks out of 50. :33 I'm very happy about that. When I asked our teacher what the homework was he was like OH YEAH by the way you did really great but it probably doesnt count because he was my teacher in yr 8 when science was so much more easier and he thought I was like the goddess of science along with a few other bright people in our class. It was very unnerving.
Then dad drove us to sha tin where we got PIZZA (and some other bits and bobs from the street shops) and then went HOME. Yay. =) And now I'm home. Phew! Finally done a proper LJ entry. xD here comes the difficulty of tagging it.

Just watched the movie Next. Was a fab movie! And v. clever. I kept going "oh my god :|" and "WHOA" throughout it xD I watched the last 3/4s first and the 1st quarter last, because i walked in when dad was already watching.
Me and Erika hung out after school and laughed our heads off. xD Teachers are definitely one of the more humorous topics of discussion.
Ugh. I have to go to school tommorow. Rehersal for a musical type thing. I've only got a (very) minor role.

Watched the first half of the LotR movie 1. EXTENDED VERSION. -music plays- Yeah. The extra scenes were uber-cool (because I have actually seen the 1st movie before, but not the 2nd or 3rd xD) but it meant just the first half (on one dvd) was...a very long time. We haven't tackled the 2nd half yet, because by the time it would end it could be midnight or something, which is uh, worrying.
Went out to Sha Tin with Liana today, we sort of roamed about, ate lunch and took sticker photos. She got her hair cut short and she looks a lot like her mum. It's creepy. I wore my supertight!jeans which I finally found in my wardrobe a few days ago which meant for the whole time my hips were being squished into nothingness and breathing was almost an issue but at least I felt sexy. Hahaha. People must suffer to look good! (Not that I ever look good xD No, I'm only kidding. I know I'm not horrifically ugly.)
I have SIX DAYS to finish my RTHK competition entry. Aaagh. Really got to do it tommorow or something. It's boring me though, because it's reality and I usually only write sci-fi, and I've changed my whole writing style for that particular piece which makes it difficult to write as well. According to Rachel it sounds very professional and all that, which is a good thing I suppose. Though clearly I'm never going to win as it's for 12-18 year olds and RTHK is a big company over here in HK (hence its name) so many people will have entered.
Signing off~

There's something depressing about being part of a friend group where everyone but you lives in England. Timezones are so awesome, haha not. Feel a little down today for reasons I'm not quite sure of myself, but am trying to cheer self up by doing a bit of dressing up (my version of crossdressing - haha, when you haven't got any male clothes this is the closest it gets).
It's getting quite chilly which I adore. I love the cold. Except when it's the cold generated by air conditioners in malls. Not quite the same thing.
Dad bought the extended versions of the three LotR movies. Hm. Expensive and very long. The third one's over four hours, he told me, then he said show off to everyone. So this is me, showing off to y'all. -shows off-
Me and Vicky are all "WHOO. LET'S BE FANTASISTS TOGETHER." I'm such a hypocrite. I hate people who can't get over their life problems and constantly say their life sucks when they've just broken up with some bastard of a boyfriend, yet I get upset over the smallest things. It's quite pathetic, really, but hey, nobody's perfect.

HALF TERM HOLIDAY. Whoo. I'm doing a fair bit of art lately, as I'm otherwise feeling a bit out of it. Tried to do a bit of researching on gender dysphoria (again) but that left me rather confused. Ooh, and, Vicky's a sber of sorts. Who'da thunk?
Hrm. Well, anyway, off to play another MMORPG. Good ones are hard to find.

had a fantastic night last night. Erika's b-day and such, we went shopping (I got converses!) and had pizza ^-^ majoristic fun-ness.

Today was a gorgeous day. Had fun drifting in and out of the house on several occasions.
We're snuggly and contemplative today. Which is good.
Reading through the old journal entries of my friends makes me miss the old days.

Rhiannon said her parents grounded her on the exact morning of the day she was going to come over. -mutter- Seems too much of a coincidence to me.
A random picture of me.
Anywhooo.. off to bed before I die of exhaustion.

Had some fun hanging out with Erika+Rhiannon todaaay after school. Nannon said that there's this girl who lives in New Zealand who is bi and apparently just my type. o.o How she would know I have no clue, but um, yeah, whatever. I'm willing to tackle friendship.
In maths we have this cool calculator (TI-84 Plus) which we need for our exam but can be connected to the compeh and stuff and dad downloaded Doom onto it 8D shooting FTW!
On the way home from school I was like "huh, wonder if I can even try imagining myself as just..myself and no one else here except myself." So I tried and it wasn't a very succesful imagining but Sek got mildly annoyed at that and sulked at the back (and still is). So there's something to go on my Don't list.
My iPod headphones broke and I can't find any spares. Also, my tablet seems to have broken. I'm hoping it's not really broken forever or I will DIE. ;.;